ANTIPROM SUCCESSS!!!!!!! I don’t feel like elaborating. AHAHAH.

I still need to develop character. I still want to become a better person and erase my flaws or at least try to minimize them. I know what I need to work on for sure and I’m going to do my best to try. With love also, I realized that I don’t know exactly what I want yet. I don’t know when I’ll figure it out but I hope whatever happens for once it will go my way…

The essence of music is emotion. I absolutely love those moments of inspiration. Sitting for hours at a time, I’ve done it before or maybe a song that last 10 minutes. IDEAS, IDEAS, and IDEAS just pour into the fingertips and that is true improv. It’s simply amazing how strong inspiration is. I love my piano. Sometimes I play like utter crap, but other times the moment I touch the keys, I KNOW that I’m going to be playing something hella crazy or at least good. In those moments when I do happen to sing, my voice gets this “extra boost” sometimes where I can hit notes that I could never before. Simply wonderful. Any musician will KNOW what I’m talking about. Anyone else probably think I’m crazy, but that is exactly what music makes me. Insane. I don’t mind going crazy because in the end if I accomplish my goal then insanity was all worth it. Had one of the best sessions just now. Basically, what it told me was, I’m on track to finally creating a first original. Melody is pretty much gotten down or at least an idea. I only need the lyrics to complete and refine. I have no idea what people will think. I have no idea if this will be the 100th song that I throw away simply because I don’t like it or because I overplay and never complete lyrics. I don’t know, but this is the farthest I’ve gotten with raw notes. Now, I’m going to see how far it takes me.

I realized after typing this thatmaybe that “extra boost” and “inspiration” came from… my mocha frappe. You know what? Whatever, no matters.